As the year comes to an end, I realize how much of its culmination has a deeper meaning for me, stemming from my existential curiosity and deep awareness of myself as a constant work in progress. While contemplating the very personal meaning we give to beginnings and endings, I can’t help but ask myself:
What is behind the end? Is it just a “so it is” or does it always require a ceremonious farewell? And, what is behind the beginning? Is it always meant to be a celebration? As it is on New Year’s Eve? We put a lot of meaning and hope on this date, without realizing that we get to do this on a daily basis if we want. We can add meaning to every beginning and end that we encounter with or without the ceremony or fanfare.
“Every new beginning comes from other beginning’s end” – Seneca
All endings have a beginning, and all beginnings have an end, which means that we are constantly ending and beginning seasons and cycles. The end of the day signifies the start of the night. The end of a relationship is the beginning of another one (maybe and most importantly with yourself). The end of a story is the beginning of the interpretation of that story and the meaning that is formed from it.
In the last three months, I have become very familiar with the beginning of certain physical changes. It took me by surprise because they flooded me all at once; the hot flashes, the anxiety, the emotional rollercoaster – all of it, seemingly out of nowhere. It was the beginning and also the end. The thought of it brought up a myriad of contrasting emotions. There was certainly no celebration with this beginning for me, but eventually, resignation and a will to “work with what is”. So, as I am still navigating what that will mean for me in the long run, I think of all the blessings that have come with it, one of them is gratitude for my health, because it is all a natural course of life, happening at the right time, not prematurely, not forced. It has given me perspective and an opportunity to reflect on what, for me, is really important about beginnings and endings:
- We have the right to feel it all.
- We can transform the feelings into opportunities to grow.
- We can celebrate or not, but it is important to give it meaning.
- We can choose to stay in the why, but why would we?
- We can change our perspective at any moment. It is our prerogative and greatest gift to be able to do so.
As we end 2023, I personally feel the completion of a deep and profound cycle of growth that started a while ago and now appears and feels like a HUGE opportunity. I am a very different person, I am lighter, wiser and willing to manifest all that is meant to be for me and my family’s greatest good.
So, as we say goodbye to 2023 and hello to 2024, think about the cycle that you just finished, think about what it means to you personally, think about the fluidity of the end and the beginning and how you are feeling into it, what meaning you are giving it. However we ENTER into this new cycle will set the tone for how we will BE in it.